Simply amazing

Last night I fell asleep thinking only thing. 

This life is amazing. 

I don't know how to describe this feeling. I can't find the right words. 

Late nighs, only a little bit sleep. New people, deep conversations. Lying on the floor, lying on the bed with random guys and laughing at the stupidest things. Drinking way too much, disappearing from friends, getting new friends. Holding hands with your love ones, softly singing "we can't look at each other in the way we reveal the truth.. what if we do fall in love after all? If in the beginning we were created as one"

This life is truly amazing. 

Come on, make me feel until the pain don't matter

Every second here makes my heart beat faster

Finally think I found what I'm chasing after.

Love,

Ambivalent

Everybody wanna live your life

Only wanna do the things you do

'Cause they always gonna turn out right

My school has started. It has been really nice, I have met so many new people - too bad I'm always working after work, so I don't have time to get known them. Luckily there are student parties, where we can hang and drink together. 

I can't stay still. I have been on the move since I got home from Oslo. School - work - school - work - drinking - school - work - school -work - seeing friends - work - school.. And everyone seems to think that it's exhausting. Of course there are days when you don't want to do anything. But I think, this busy schedule is one of the reasons why I feel so good. 

The problem is the days when I don't have anything. Days when I don't have anything planned, anything to do. I don't have to go anywhere, no one can hang with me. It gives me a chance to just be. And then it hits. I can't remember how to just be.  I don't know how to sleep long nights, how to stop my legs moving. I don't remember how to lie in the bed and enjoy it. 

That's the time when I get nervous - I don't want to be in one place. I can't be still, I can't concentrate. I'm restless. I'm Duracell bunny. 

And the world is still amazing.

Love,

Ambivalent