"January was dark and cold. It was full of sadness and sorrow. It felt like I had raining clouds over my head, I wanted to crawl under a rock. Nothing special happened, but there wasn't any feeling at all. No bad nor good. It was just time of emptiness.
But now.. Now I'm back. Clouds have disappered and I can see the light again. I feel so alive, I have energy and I believe in myself. Dancing in the streets, being pure love, I can't stop smiling! "
I have been opening this entry many times now, I have been trying to write this over a week. I have written a few words, but I can't find the right words for this feeling. I wish you could see inside of my head. You could understand what I'm talking about.
I can't consentrate, my mind goes its own way - I try to keep up, but sometimes I fail. Like right now. My mind would go much further than my body allows. My body decided it's time to rest a little bit. It's okay, because in five days I'll be in Spain with Red. It's better rest now.
I feel so good and I love all of you.
Love,
Ambivalent
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