No one's gonna take my soul away

I have started at least 5 different posts lately. And never managed to write more than few sentences.

I have written about anger which wipes out everything good. It destroys smiles, it turns light to darkness. How everything pisses me off. About happiness which flows through me. Evenings when I fell asleep smiling, disappearing in the music. Nights when I wake up all lights still on.

I have written about my school, my new friends there. How I want to remember everything, but I forget everything after few days. How everything becomes blurry so easily, but how everything is also so bright. How I have been studying - me, who doesn't have any motivation for studying.

I have been trying to write about what I have learn lately, how I have seen the change in me. I'm lost and yet I'm not. I know exactly where I am and where I want to go, and at the same time - I know nothing. How I have found strange link with weird people and it's as scary as always. Found people who think same strange things, people who understand your thoughts.

I have been wanting to write so much, I have been trying so much - and this is all I can do.

Love,
Ambivalent