Welcome to the journey

I have a problem. 
How to find yourself if you're with someone? How to find yourself in your small hometown? I have been thinking about it lately and well, I still haven't figured it out. 

Anyway. I'm Ambivalent. Age 21. Gender female. From Europe. Living with guy. I have two cats and I love them. I'm having my year off, but I know that I have to start studying next year. I don't have any motivation to study right now, but I hope that will change before I start my studies. I want to travel around the world. I wanna live abroad. I want to find myself, I wanna know what I really want to do, what I want from life, who I wanna be. 

Some calls me crazy, but I usually travel alone. I don't wanna have anyone with me. It's easier to meet new people and maybe travel with them for a while. Okay, I have been alone only in Amsterdam and Sicily.  But it's a start. Travelling is my way to find myself.  And now it feels like I can't truly find myself if someone is with me. It's so hard to know what I want if there's someone else telling me what he/she wants. 

Right now I don't have any idea what I want. But I'm on my way to find out. 
Welcome to the journey. Hope you like it.

Love,
Ambivalent

ps. English isn't my mother language, but I wanna learn to use it as much as possible. So don't judge me if my English isn't that good.