Stay. Leave.

I want you here, next to me. I want you close to me. I want you to touch me, hold me tight. 

I want you gone. Go away. Don't touch me. 

No, don't go. Don't leave me alone. I don't want to be alone.

I want you near, but I don't want you close. 

I want to be free. And I can't be free if you are too close.

But it was not your fault but mine

and it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

I'm so lost and I don't know how to find my way back.
Luckily - 15 nights and Iceland with Red. 

Love,

Ambivalent

ps. I just realized this was my 101th post here. Wow