Thursday, May 16, 2013

Listen to your heart, there's nothing else you can do

Trust your heart. Usually it knows, what to do. It leads you in right place, tells what you have to do right now. I have been following one girl, who actually follows her heart. It's so beautiful thing to see. She makes decisions by heart - if it tells that you have to go to the mountains, she goes. If she feels like staying abroad, she stays.

I'm trying to learn how to listen and trust my heart. I had one of those perfect moments yesterday. I had been little bit down, in some other reality almost whole day. I can't remember much about work, but after work.. I went to see Ted, we didn't do anything special. We just hang out for a while.

Then I had to go home. Time was around half past ten, but it was still bright and warm outside. I walked towards bus stop, saw one girl, around my age, jumping across the street. I do the exactly the same thing when I'm extremely happy. I smiled and continued walking.

And then it hit me, right there, at the bus stop. I felt absolutely amazing serene feeling. Everything felt so right, I could feel the love from the world. I knew exactly what music I wanted to listen, how I wanted to sit. I just were completely serene. And I tell you - it felt amazing.

But that's not the perfect moment I was talking about. After I got home, I made food for myself. Usually I watch anime while eating, but for some reason I felt like, no, not today. I didn't want to watch anything else either. So I started to read. I opened Paolo Coelho - The Alchemist and I knew, that was the right decision. I knew it was time to read it now. And I read it, whole book. It only took two hours.

That might sound something small, but for me it meant the world right then. Because I felt something and I act according to it. I trusted my heart, even though it was small thing.
And it felt amazing.

Love,
Ambivalent

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