Teach me

Dancing boy showed me, how much I can get if I open up myself. He saw right inside of me and never gave up until he got his answer. I hated it. And I loved it. After knowing him I was more sure about myself, I knew what I need to do. He showed me where to go.

But I have forgotten it. I have gone back to my little world. I'm more blissful than ever before, but I'm also more depressed. I have put those walls back, even though I saw how much good I can get without them.

I believe people are good, but I can't trust them. I don't know how to open up. I want to talk with everyone, I want to share my thoughts and tell everyone what I think and how I feel. But something inside of me stops me.

I'm not sure what am I expecting from other people. Dancing boy didn't give up, he just keep going and asking things until I told him. Ted is giving me space and waiting me to open up when I want. He doesn't except me to anything, he just takes me as me. Red, well.. Red  doesn't have to do anything, because she's like me. We are connected some weird and awesome way.

It would be so much easier if I knew what I want people to do, if there was some logic in me. But maybe it's not about what other people do, maybe it doesn't matter at all. Maybe it's about chemistry between two person. Some people just make you open up, you just click with them and everything comes naturally.

Love,
Ambivalent