I'm such a cliché.

People tend to make promises in New Year's Eve, promise how they will change or what they will do next year. For many years I haven't made any promise, because.. well - it had seemed stupid. Why would I make promises only in the beginning of new year? It's not that different day. 

This year I'm going to be such a cliché. I'm few days late, but I'll make a promise for this year. I won't promise to become better person, or be happier. I won't promise to quit my bad habits like smoking and drinking. I won't promise to stress less, work out more or anything like that. I could make promise to get my head back on track, I could make promise to see my friends more. 

All of those are really good promises and well.. actually I'm trying to do most of them all the time. My promise is kind of boring, but it's okay. It's only for me.

Some of you know that I hate having so much stuff in my apartment. It makes me extremely anxious. Last year could spend hours in my bed, because I didn't know what to do to all those things. I want to get rid of almost everything, but I'm really bad at letting go. 

I don't need most of the these things. I have gathered boxes and bags around my apartment. They are full of stuff that doesn't have any place to go. They are useless, but I can't throw them away. I don't know how to do it. 

But this year I'll learn it. I'll learn how to get rid of things I don't need. I'll finally become free from stuff I don't need. One year might be too short time for learning whole new thinking pattern, but I'll try it. So my promise will be I'll go through all of my stuff and throw away everything I don't need. Deadline is end of this year. 

Love,

Ambivalent