These colors wade to gray.

Time flies, life moves on in periods. I would love to say that life goes in circles, it would mean that you can get back the earlier phase. But it doesn't work like that. Nothing lasts forever and everything changes. You can't go back. And in many ways, that's a relief. 

You can choose where you want to go next. You can choose what do you do with your life.

Lately I have been in quite weird period. I call it the school-period. I can't think anything else than school, I can't do anything if it doesn't have something to do with school. I have spent many weekends just reading and doing homeworks, I have had meetings - but they are kind of school stuff too. I don't know how to do something else. I don't have any intrest to go out dancing, see my friends or anything. Of course it's always nice to see friends, but I don't remember how to be a social. I can't enjoy anything. I just can't remember how to do something else than school stuff. 

Luckily I know this is only one kind of period. Like every other periods, it will pass. This won't last forever. Soon I will be able to change this. 

Maybe in winterbreak I can relax. Few weeks and I'll fly to Oslo for a weekend and then to Spain! Little over week with Red, it'll be awesome. 

Love,

Ambivalent