I felt alive.

Well, my whole summer just went by. It was rough and awesome at the same. I got Red to live next to me, I saw her almost every day and it was amazing. It felt just right. I was maniac in the beginning of the summer, but I fixed later. I was on sick leave over two weeks because of my mental health and it was the first time ever to be off work for such a reason. It felt so weird.

I have been unable to concentrate on anything, but I have lived more than whole spring. My daily rhythm was messed up, but it felt like life. I never liked the "normal rhythm" where you get up early and go to the bed in time. I'm more night owl - I feel more alive during nights. Sadly it's hardly ever possible.

Soon I'll be going to South Korea. I have been waiting for the trip almost two years, it has been one thing keeping me sane. Now it's actually happening and it couldn't feel better. Next Tuesday I'll be in Seoul in my new apartment and talking with my new roommate. This autumn will be legendary.

Love,
Ambivalent