Living out our dream

I spin and spin, look up and smile. Everyone next to me is blurry, I close my eyes and no one is there anymore. Hands up and touch the sky. I'm meant to fly. Forget everything around you, just get lost in the music.

Let me love you, and I will love you
until you learn yourself.

I wanna sing to other people, I wanna show my love. I wanna share this happiness inside of me. Last night I was pure happiness. Alone, middle of the dance floor. Avoiding people. I took my glasses away, jumped all over the dance floor. I didn't see anyone's face, they were too blurry for me.

And again, people were asking "are you sure you are sober?" Laughing, laughing and smiling. I didn't want to talk, I just wanted to get lost in the sound. Have that stupid smile on my face and just be pure happiness. Not to care about anyone else but me. Maybe this is the reason why I go to clubs all by myself. Sometimes it's nice to do things by myself.

I'm wondering how next summer will go. If I really go to Tomorrowland and Interrail with D.. It will be the first time I spent whole trip with someone for very long time. Red is coming to Iceland with me, but she's there about only half of the time I'll be there. First me and D planned only to go to Tomorrowland together, but now it seems like we are planning to go Interrail together too. From four days to 3-4 weeks. That's quite much. To spent with someone who you don't even know.

And you know how I am. I like doing things alone. But I can't help the feeling, it's nice to think that this time I would have someone who shares the same things with me. 

Love,
Ambivalent