Why do you travel so much?

And why do you do it alone?

Many people has asked me that. It's usually the people, who doesn't travel that much or people, who haven't travelled alone. They want to know what am I trying to escape, why abroad – why isn't your own country enough. How can I afford to travel that often. How am I so brave to travel alone!

Like Red always says – it's not about the money. Never let money to stop your dreams. It's never about the money. You'll always find away to collect the money – at least if you are from western country. If the money is the only thing in your way, you have to ask you – do you really want to do it so badly or is money just excuse for you.

One of the reasons why I travel so much is that it makes me feel alive. And all of you know how badly I want to feel alive, how much I need it. It makes me live in this moment, forget everything else. It makes every second count.

The other reason is that I can concentrate better when I'm travelling. I see things more clearly. I haven't found a way to do that at home, so it's easier to take a little distance. I learn new things, about the world and myself. It helps me to be better me.

And of course the language. I like the idea that no one understands me if I talk my mother language. I also like when I don't understand what people are saying around me. It makes my imagination run wild and I love it! I get better inspiration for writing, as you can see.

So why do I travel alone. Because it's the only way I can truly relax. I like travelling with friends, being in Iceland with Red was so awesome. But it's different. When you are alone, you decide everything. You are responsible only for your own happiness. You don't have to worry about anyone else.

And that's why I travel alone. I need break from taking care of everyone else.

Probably most of you already know these things, because I have been talking about these. But this is more for myself. My brother used to travel and he loved it, nowadays he can't understand why people want to travel so much. So if I ever lose my love towards travelling, I want to be able to remember why I loved it so much.

Love,

Ambivalent