You create..

Sometimes it feels like I'm living on different reality than others. I'm on my little world, feeling all those emotions, thinking of all those thoughts, seeing all those things. I'm there and when I try to explain them to others, no one seems to understand what I mean.

I find this normal world quite boring. Still I have to be here, because that's what people do. Even if they don't like it, even if they would be so much happier somewhere else.

And what's keeping me? Fear.

Fear is really powerful weapon. It can stop you doing the things you love, it can hold you back. But it can also give you so much power. It's okay to be scared. You just can't let it take control. You have to learn how to live with it.

I don't know how. I don't know how to take the biggest step, how to take a risk. How to jump without knowing what's coming. I'm a control freak and I hate it.

I want to be the person Dancing boy saw in me.

I want to be the person Red sees in me.

I want to be the person Ted sees in me.

I want to be the person who I'm with those people.

Love,

Ambivalent