I'm not a big fan of Christmas, it has lost its meaning. But it's nice to have few days off. And for me, Christmas is the time of the year, when I can give gifts without anyone asking "why, why are you giving me this?" People aren't used to get presents and well, I like giving presents. This is the only time of the year when its acceptable. Even though.. Sometimes I do it anyway, even if it usually makes people uncomfortable.
I have been so busy lately. I haven't had time to write anything. I have been jumping around and trying to keep myself together. Days are going way too fast, and they blend together. I don't know what happened first, what last. What was the order of the days?
But it's okay not to know. I like this anyway.
I realized today, that I have lost my ability to relax. I haven't done anything today and I feel BAD because of it. I have never felt bad because of doing nothing. But it feels so wrong to stay inside all day, watch tv and just eat everything. I feel like.. I have to do something. Go somewhere. See someone. Be more creative.
Nahh, I want to enjoy this lazyness! I want to be able to enjoy this without guilty conscience.
You'r such a good friend, I have to break your heart.
Tell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart
Love,
Ambivalent
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