First time

First night at my new home. It's weird to be at the same apartment I left over two years ago. It's like nothing has changed. I tried my wings and came back to home. It seems it wasn't my time to go yet.

I know this apartment so well, there are so many memories. This was my house for independence. First apartment where I lived on my own, still near to my dad. I know every corner here, I know exactly where to put everything. I know which order I should switch the lights of, where to put my shoes and keys. I know every sound here. I know every shadow here.

It feels weird to have two homes for a while. Most of my stuff is here already, but rest are still the old home. And I still have to go there too many times. It's still my home even though I won't be living there. I'm gonna just take rest of my stuff and leave. Okay, I have to clean that apartment too.
I have a feeling that next weeks I'm gonna be just cleaning all the time.

It's so weird to be here. It's so awesome. It feels so good to just lie in the bed doing nothing. If I could choose right now, I wouldn't go back to the other home anymore. It would be so awesome just leave that time behind. But I can't do that yet. I have duties. But soon, soon enough I can close that door and truly move on.

Oh, this is my first entry with my new computer. It's kind of weird to use it, but I already love it. It's so fast, cute and new. I love it. I can be on skype and watch series at the same time without any problems. I couldn't do that with my old laptop. It was terrible.

I can't keep my thoughts together right now, so maybe it's time for sleeping. Tonight I'm gonna do something I have missed so much last two years. I'm going to listen music while falling asleep.

I have left my mark on you

There is nothing you can do

It won't be the same again,

she don't compare to who I am

Love,
Ambivalent

p.s. My cats are awesome!