That's what I call friendship.

I love my friends. One of my best friends was here on Monday. I was working late, but she still came here. We stayed up almost whole night and talked about everything. We listened music, went walking, laughed on everything. We met some new people and enjoyed life. We made a bed for two of us middle of all these boxes and mess. My cats were walking over us whole night, but it was nice. Everything was so nice with my friend.

It's silly how well we get along. We haven't seen each other that many times, I think we have seen like ten times now. We don't talk every day, not even every week. Sometimes it can take many months without talking anything. But still I can say she is one of my best friends. She is awesome person. Every time we see, everything continues like nothing has changed. That is how I like my friendships.

Oh, my ex-boyfriend got an apartment! So we are both moving out soon. I start moving this weekend, he starts it next month. And we still haven't terminated our rental agreement. We have to do it next week. It's really funny that I'm moving this weekend and I haven't even packed everything. I have to hurry a little bit. Even though I don't have to rush things, I still have time to move out next month. But I want to move as soon as possible.

I don't know is it normal to be so happy for my ex. I was so happy when he told me he got that apartment. He just smiled and it felt so good. And I know he is taking his new acquaintance to the movies and dinner today. Usually people feel bad if their ex finds someone new so quickly, but I was so happy when I heard about it. It's nice to know that he is getting better. His life is finding its place and everything is settling.
Even though my ex was asshole (well, I was too), I still want only good for him.

One more thing. I'm gonna spent my Christmas differently this year. Not that I have celebrated it properly last 3 years, I have been at the bars with my friends last 3 years. It has been our tradition. But this year.. It's gonna be more different. I'm so excited!

Love,
Ambivalent