Living in the night, hiding from the day

I like nights more than days. Everything is so beautiful during nights. I have more energy in the evenings. My life begins after my work and my work ends after 9 pm. I always want to see my friends after it, I wanna do everything. Problem is that everyone is either sleeping or going to sleep. Almost every place is closed, so there are nowhere to go. I can't get home after 11 pm, because buses stop going around 11. It sucks.

It's understandable why buses stop then, or why most of the places are closed. Majority of the people are going to sleep. They are getting ready for new day. They are getting ready for sleeping when I'm starting my day. It's a bless and curse to work at the evenings. I don't like doing things before my work, I don't like seeing my friends, I don't like going out, I don't like working out. I wanna do those things after my work, at night.

But this world doesn't work like that. It's almost impossible to do things I want during night. If I want to clean my apartment - I can't because it's too noisy. If I want to see my friends, I can't because they have to sleep so they can study next morning. If I want to go out and have a cup of tea, I can't because every place is closed and if they are open, I need a car to get there. If I want to go shopping, I can't because every fucking store is closed.

It's annoying and stressful to try to fit in the world I don't seem to belong.  I know I'm not alone. There are many other people, who like nights, who are more active during night. I know I should change myself if I want to fit in this world, but I'm not sure do I want. I rather change the world, not myself. I have been changing myself too long, maybe it's world's time to change.

I wanna change this world. I want it to be okay to stay up for long, that there are more options for those people who want to live like that. And that's not gonna happen if everyone just tries to fit in this world. That's why I'm gonna do what I want and live my life at the nights if I want. If I have some days when I want to wake up early and do other stuff, it's okay too. I just don't wanna conform to something, because it's something you should do to survive in this world.

Love,
Ambivalent