"When I was a little girl, I told my mom that I'm happy. And she told me "Never say you are happy. Never tell it to anyone"." I was shocked when my friend told me that. Why would anyone tell their kids that it's not okay to express their feelings? That's insane.
Okay. I know, there's a phrase which goes something like "The one, who has the happiness, should hide it". I know it might annoy someone if someone else tells that she/he is happy. I know it's not always nice to watch and see how everyone else seems so happy, when you are feeling bad at the same time. I know it's kinda sensible to hide your happiness for others.
But that is totally bullshit. Why shouldn't I show if I'm happy? It might bother someone, but I know my friends can be happy for me. I know how to be happy for other people, so I expect everyone else know that too. I have surrounded myself with people who can be truly happy for other's happiness. That's one of the reasons why I love my friends. I can share my happiness, they can share their happiness. I can share my troubles and they can share their troubles. That's normal friendship, that's how things should be.
Everyone, who reads my blog, knows how happy I am right now. I never thought it might bother someone. Maybe it does, but I believe most of the people are just happy for me. Even if I'm happy, it doesn't mean that I can't help other. I can still listen everyone's problems, I can be supportive. I don't have to talk about my happiness all the time, I don't need to rub it into face. I just believe that if I share my happiness, other people can be happier too.
I want everyone to be as happy as me and I wanna do my part. I don't share my good feelings just because I want everyone to know about them - no. I share them because I hope someone else starts to think positive too. Because if you think positive, good things will eventually happen to you.
You create your own reality. If you think negatively, is it a surprise that your life is tough? I know it's hard to think positive when bad things happen all the times, but it's worth of it. Because as long as you are alive, there's hope. There's possibility that everything turns okay. No, I know that everything will turn okay at the end. Always.
It's your choice - are you going to enjoy the ride or complaining about it all the time. Learn to see beauty in everyone and everything. Enjoy the rainy days, because they only make sunny days even better.
And to those who thinks that I don't know anything about being sad or having problems - I have been deeply depressed for many years and actually, I ended my therapy a year ago, seeing psychiatrist ended about six months ago. I know how hard is it to think positive, how hard is it to see anything beautiful in this world. But I'm learning and so should you.
Love,
Ambivalent
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