Take a good look around, I know it's not much, but it's okay

What the hell is happening in my friend group.. Two of my best friends have gotten engaged this month. And it's only 5th day. Now I'm waiting for someone else to get engaged.

I'm really happy for my friends. I didn't expect them to get engaged so soon. The first couple have been together less than year, but I think they really love each other. If you know that you wanna be together rest of your life, there are no reason to slow down or rush things. As long it feels good and right, it doesn't matter.
The second couple have been together a little bit over two years. I wouldn't believe them to get engaged. I mean. I knew that my friend is family-type and she really wants to have a kid when she's still young. I knew that she loves to be home with her boyfriend, sorry - her fiance. She has lived that single stage and she doesn't want to go to bars so often anymore. She has settled down. But still. It was shock to read it from Facebook.

I think it was shock because this really means that my friends are settling down and soon I don't have anyone to party with. I started to think and I realized that almost all of my close friends are at least dating someone. I have like 8 or 9 close friends and only one of them is single right now. And of course I have some good friends too, but there is only one single friend more. How the hell is this possible?

I know, it's selfish to think about these things when my friends are getting engaged and stuff, but I have to be honest to myself and everyone else too. I'm really happy for them, but at the same time.. It makes me realize that my friends can't hang with me the same way anymore. I know they are not going anywhere. But seriously, there is no one who could come partying with me. Not the same way we use to do.

Or maybe this is just odd for me, because I just got out of 2 and half year relationship. My relationship was longer than my friends, but still I'm the one who broke up and ended up being alone. I'm happy the way I are now, but it's just so strange to watch someone else to make commitment to each others. I can't even think about being with someone and at the same time my friends are happy in the relationships. It's so strange to be completely different life situation than everyone else.

It sucks to be only single. Luckily I have one friend who just broke up with her boyfriend. I think I'll spent quite much time with her in the near future.

But my dear friends - I'm really happy for you! ♥

Love,
Ambivalent