If you love someone, set them free.

Have you ever loved someone so much, it doesn't bother you if she/he is with someone else?
I have.

I love him and of course I would love to be with him, I would love to have him all to myself. I could lock him down and just keep him. But that's not love. I want him to be happy. I want him to live his life, enjoy every day. I want him to feel the love, meet new people and go crazy. Feel all the emotions. He has been alone for long time now and his life is changing. It's so much easier to face everything if you have someone with you.

In my opinion we make the perfect match. And he has said that too. But there's no way us to be together right now, it's not the right thing to do. It would only hurt both of us, and neither of us want to screw things up. He knows there's no point me to start dating so soon after my break up, but I know there's no point to ask him to wait for me. I wouldn't be able to life with myself if I ever do that.

I love him so much that the only thing I want is that he's happy. If it means he's with someone else, that's okay. Even if he dates someone else, we can still be friends. He's not disappearing, he's just living his life. I couldn't be happier about the fact he's living, that he's moving on a little bit.

It's weird how no one seems to believe that I'm happy for him. Not even him. When he told me, he was kind of nervous. Like.. He seemed to be a little bit afraid how I react. And I think he was kind of surprised when I told him, it's okay. I have told him many times that I just want him to be happy. That he deserves the best and I won't stop him. It would break my heart if I do that. But he never believed it. No one did.

I have a feeling that some day we will end up together. It probably won't happen in next year, maybe not even next five years.. We live our lives separately, but we are always connected. We can date other people, because you never know what life brings. There's a possibility that we are never gonna be together, but it's okay. Because the only thing that matters is that we can be happy and if it's without being together, so be it. It really doesn't matter as long as we are happy.

I just wish she looks at him like I do. I wish she loves him like I do.

Love,
Ambivalent

p.s.
He was so surprised when I told him that I already knew. I had known like month, I just waited him to say it out loud. He was like, how? How could you know if no one knows.. Well, I call it intuition or maybe instincts. I just had that feeling, I just knew it.