You like your girls insane

I have been shaking my hands and legs all day. I can't stop moving. I can't control my mind, my thoughts. Working today was impossible, because I couldn't sit in the cash point nor do anything in the store. I tried to organize products, but it was impossible.

It would be nice to have this much energy, if I could use it. If I could transform this energy into practical energy, it would help me. I wanna able to do things, like clean this apartment, send emails, go jogging.. You know, useful stuff. But no! This energy just blocks everything. I can't use it on anything and I just walk around. My heart is pounding too fast. 

I can't see myself as crazy person, but someones have told me that I'm crazy. I'm not sure am I right or are they right. I mean. I'm in the middle of my life, this is normal to me. I don't see what's wrong about my way of thinking, it's easier to see it when you are outsider. I don't care what other people say, but sometimes I wonder are they right. How can I see if I'm going nuts?
My thoughts make sense to me, but other ones don't understand them.

Love,
Ambivalent