What do you desire?

What would you do if money didn't matter? What do you desire?

I'm still trying to figure out what I really desire. It's kind of hard to find it out. Or admit. True feelings are hard and they make you vulnerable. They can make you feel powerful, but you are also vulnerable at the same time. And being vulnerable has always been problem for me. I don't wanna show my weakness to other people. I want to survive on my own. Without anyone.

What do I desire? First thing that comes to my mind is freedom. I wanna be free. I wanna be able to choose my life, go wherever I want. I don't want anything or anyone to hold me down. I'm still finding my place in this world and I want to do it my own way. Right now I have a feeling that I don't have just one place where I belong. I have many. I belong everywhere and nowhere. I feel home everywhere and nowhere. I want everything and nothing.

I think I love travelling just because it makes me feel free. I wanna travel around the world and probably alone. Hitchhike in the middle of the Asia, talk to strangers, go with the flow. Have a road trip around USA, meet my friends there. Coach surf, see little villages. 

 I believe in the kindness of the strangers. 

I desire freedom.

Love,

Ambivalent